Thursday, August 04, 2005

Note to Self: You Rule.



Today marks my second year anniversary of quitting smoking.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't occasionally miss it, but 95% of the time I'm happy knowing that the old lungs are back to a normal, pinkish hue. And I love being able to run without getting a horrible stitch in my side, and I love waking up even after drinking entirely too much without a sore throat, and I don't miss the yearly bouts with bronchitis, and I don't miss having stinky clothes and hair.

I smoked my first cigarette in the seventh grade, and continued all through my formative years. For many years I was a serial quitter, quitting for weeks and months at a time (once in college I quit for an entire year). But every time I would go back to smoking I would somehow feel more life myself. Like the real, cynical, smartass, vulnerable high school aged Sasefina, cig firmly in hand. Smoking was a diversion, a meditation, a piece of armor. It was a hard habit to break, and I don't think I'll ever feel confident that I've progressed beyond it's grip.

But here's to growing up.

10 Comments:

At 7:29 AM, Blogger aelmy said...

Congratulations Sase! You do rule. There is no question!

 
At 11:38 AM, Anonymous i am brianlynch said...

are you positive your hair isn't stinky? i mean, who's sniffing it these days?


who else reads this thing besides me and miss emily?

 
At 1:03 PM, Blogger Satisfied '75 said...

thats awesome, cuz. now you need to cut out the Skoal.

 
At 1:06 PM, Blogger sasefina said...

Miss Emily reads my blog?

Satisfied, I'm a Kodiak gal myself.

 
At 3:43 PM, Blogger tj1972 said...

There with you, Sasefina. I quit almost 3 years ago, but I'd be lying if I said I don't miss it from time to time. I still feel a bit victorious waking up after a big night out and realizing that I didn't succumb to the temptation and my hair and clothes are free of smoke.

 
At 12:04 AM, Anonymous JeremyPiv said...

Holy fack I miss smoking. It completed me. Just like Jerry McGuire and that black girl, Captain Shagapuss. You know, the one legged herm with a penchant for Forsyth novels.

 
At 10:09 AM, Blogger Scrubby Nub and The Bothered Brigade said...

I'd love to kick the habit, but I also love the habit. I'm coming up on a 10-year anniversary with the stogies myself. The last week I've had a terrible smoker's cough, but I'm trying to fight though that - one cig at a time. I always feel like shit. And I'm poor. Maybe I should quit.

 
At 11:14 AM, Blogger sasefina said...

jeremypiv, where've you been all my life?

 
At 5:10 PM, Blogger CHW said...

I dabbled, but never got serious. However, my Dad smoked for 45 straight years and then stopped cold turkey five years ago. Hasn't faltered and actually says that the thought disgusts him now. Kind of wild.

Congrats to you. Keep it up.

 
At 9:56 AM, Blogger Cash Advance Man said...

I skim a lot of blogs, and so far yours is in the Top 3 of my list of favorites. I'm going to dive in and try my hand at it, so wish me luck.

It'll be in a totally different area than yours (mine is about danger of smoking) I know, it sounds strange, but it's like anything, once you learn more about it, it's pretty cool. It's mostly about danger of smoking related articles and subjects.

 

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